i fold

with you back all that i've worked for just crumbles through the cracks in the floor
too gone for some to see, there's no use in me trying to repair what i almost made whole

now i need just a little more silence
and i need just a little more time

now you've said your words of me, you've got what you want of me, you still seem to be winning it all
will you never end with this? i know you still insist on watching me scream as i fall

but leave me be i don't want to argue i don't have the energy to go on anymore
say what you wish of me, know that i'll disagree, as i fold helpless on the floor

you're making me cold, cold and uncaring towards all those who once made me warm
you made me your mold of me, all that you would not see carved from the thought of it all

now i need just a little more silence
and i need just a little more time

i do not matter you hold all the power in your words you've held it for so long

but leave me be i don't want to argue i don't have the energy to go on anymore
say what you wish of me, know that i'll disagree, as i fold helpless on the floor

time heals all but me nothing helps heal though i've tried for so long
too gone for some to see, there's no use in me trying to repair what i almost made whole

Push

Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do 'cause you're to good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You wont stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe

Your love is just the antidote when nothing else will cure me
There are times I cant decide when I cant tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK
Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe

Push - Sarah McLachlan

a far cry from easy

what am i to do
i don't know if this will be
anything more than broken
because of who i've come to be

i fall back upon my hesitance
welcome any resistance
to changing what i see

so for you
to go through
all that you're about to
you must be crazy, but oh

i'll keep on trying to grow
but i don't see anything changing

i know that i'm a hard one to know
i know that i'm a hard one to love
i know that i'm a far cry from easy

all of the sleepless nights that i'll put you through
will make it hard for you to see through
all the pain i'm sure to cause
'cause i'm gonna be a far, far cry from easy

you might want to be
a bit cautious with me
at first i might seem simple
but i'm really deceiving

i try to cover up the burdens
and don't care 'bout the hurt i'm
so unfamiliar, baby, that you might not recognize me, but oh

i'll keep on trying to grow
but i don't see one thing changing

i know that i'm a hard one to know
i know that i'm a hard one to love
i know that i'm a far cry from easy

all of the sleepless nights that i'll put you through
will make it hard for you to see through
all the pain i'm sure to cause
'cause i'm gonna be a far, far cry from easy

now i don't know what exactly you're thinking
but don't think that you will get away with some comfortable fling
'cause i'll be frustrating and aggravating
unlike all those precious dreams
i'm sure that i'll be mean and so damn discouraging

i know that i'm a hard one to know
i know that i'm a hard one to love
i know that i'm a far cry from easy

all of the lonely times that i'll put you through
will make it hard for you to see through
all the pain i'm sure to cause
'cause i'm gonna be a far, far cry

i swear i'll be a far, far cry from easy

Shine, Perishing Republic

While this America settles in the mould of its vulgarity, heavily thickening to empire,
And protest, only a bubble in the molten mass, pops and sighs out, and the mass hardens,

I sadly smiling remember that the flower fades to make fruit, the fruit rots to make earth.
Out of the mother; and through the spring exultances, ripeness and decadence; and home to the mother.

You making haste haste on decay: not blameworthy; life is good, be it stubbornly long or suddenly
A mortal splendor: meteors are not needed less than mountains: shine, perishing republic.

But for my children, I would have them keep their distance from the thickening center; corruption
Never has been compulsory, when the cities lie at the monster's feet there are left the mountains.

And boys, be in nothing so moderate as in love of man, a clever servant, insufferable master.
There is the trap that catches noblest spirits, that caught - they say - God, when he walked on earth.

Mending Wall

Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it
And spills the upper boulders in the sun,
And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
The work of hunters is another thing:
I have come after them and made repair
Where they have left not one stone on a stone,
But they woul dhave the rabbit out of hiding,
To please the yelping dogs. The gaps I mean,
No one has seen them made or heard them made,
But at spirng mending-time we find them there.
I let my neighbor know beyond the hill;
And on a day we meet to walk the line
And set the wall between us once again.
We keep the wall between us as we go.
To each the boulders that have fallen to each.
And some are loaves and some so nearly balls
We ahve to use a spell tomake them balance:
"Stay where you are until our backs are turned!"
We wear our fingers rough with handling them.
Oh, just another kind of outdoor game,
One on a side. It comes to little more:
There where it is we do not need the wall:
He is all pine and I am apple orchard.
My apple trees wil lnever get across
And eat the cones under his pines, I tell him.
He only says, "Good fences make good neighbors."
Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
If I could put a notion in his head:
"Why do they make good neighbors? Isn't it
Where there are cows? But here there are no cows.
Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
What I was walling in or walling out,
And to whom I was like to give offense.
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That wants it down." I could say "Elves" to him,
But it's not elves exactly, and I'd rather
He said it for himself. I see him there,
Bringing a stone grasped firmly by the top
In each hand, like an old-stone savage armed.
He moves in darkenss as it seems to me,
Not of woods aonly and the shade of trees.
He will not go behind his father's saying,
And he likes having thought of it so well
He says again, "Good fances make good neighbors."

i'm only human

i do not hold the universe within my present perspective
nor will my present verse represent the collective
i can only know what i've been determined to experience
and hope that that makes all of the difference

The Learned

The grey beards wag, the bald heads nod,
And gather thick as bees,
To talk electrons, gases, God,
Old nebulae, new fleas.
Each specialist, each dry-as-dust
And professional oaf,
Holds up his little crumb of crust
And cries, "Behold the loaf!"

Eden Phillpotts - The Learned

The Red Wheelbarrow

so much depends
upon

a red wheel
barrow

glazed with rain
water

beside the white
chickens.

...William Carlos Williams