my dream (isn't the dream i thought it'd be)

i can't keep tryin'
hopin' my heart is lyin'
i can't keep focused
on illusions i hope to be real
i can't keep denyin'
what i feel inside my soul
i can't keep hopin', wishin', prayin'
that it'll all work out okay
it's not goin' how i hoped it to
it's not doin' what i want it to
it's not filling me like i need it to
it's just not what it seemed it'd be
i'm not pretending i know the answer
or have a shred of truth
it's just the simple fact
that i don't know what to do
i'm too weak to make a final thought
trusting life to take the lead
it breaks my heart to think my dream
isn't the dream i thought it'd be
i'm scared and sad and feeling numb
it's dark and i don't know what's to come